So

I'm a mess. 

I'm someone who's been thrown to the ground, stepped on, beat up, torn apart and completely ruined. I've been hurt, rarely told that someone cares. I did everything for attention and got nothing. Absolutely nothing. Unless you count "shut up." Or "sit down." 

I don't remember feeling pretty. There may have been times I said that I did and then looked back and hated every single thing about myself. There's nothing about me that's pretty. Sometimes I like my hair. Sometimes. 

I have a best friend. We're polar opposites except for the few things we tried to force onto eachother that sometimes show up in the car rides to nowhere.

I'm apart of a family holding on by a string that should have snapped a while ago.  And I'm not getting into that now..

But what am I supposed to do? I'm a girl who finds it impossible to be happy with herself, can't seem to catch a break from my parents, constantly trying to impress everyone, has the most confusing relationships with boys, and just wants to be accepted. And that sounds cheesy. But I wanna walk down the hallway and feel wanted. I want someone to congratulate me on my part and not sound like they're making fun of it. 

I want more. 

Or I want out.

I wanna be gone.