A heart to heart with a friend ended up turning into a lot of things I did not want to hear. I don't understand how you can look me in the eye and tell me that everyone hates you. I have done nothing but been the "big sister" (as you said) that you "always wanted." I made sure you were comfortable everywhere you went, IM the one who listened to you every time you would run off crying at EVERY SINGLE CAST PARTY. You were gonna kill yourself, at my party, because a guy said something stupid to you and you aren't friends with a girl who was your best friend anymore? Not to mention that everytime you disappeared, Bryce, Annie, and I would come look for you. When you ran away, we all split up to find you. People care about you and you need to see that. I dont know why you dont. Yes, everything is rough. But killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Jackson explained why he said what he did and it wasn't toward you at all. I was there. And just because nobody wanted to watch you do your drum major stuff for the 15th time that night, and we dont know anything about marching band so having a conversation with you last night was pretty rough, doesn't mean we don't care about you.
God, I dont know what else to do with you. And im scared for whats going to happen now that im not there 24/7.
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