Damn you, John Green.

Today's the first day that I thought about it and cried. Randomly. Like on the way home from KC today it hit me. And I cried the whole way home and then to sleep when I got home. I don't know what I'm going to do without you and I'm scared to know what I'm gonna do to try and be happy again.. I sound like an annoying teenage girl. This sucks. It's like a movie. 

John Green is my life assistant and his way of dealing with this kind of situation is not an option. Ugh.