Tonight

9 months. I knew for 9 months that this was gonna happen. Of course I could prepare the whole time, but.. Even the summer. I had the whole fucking summer to get over him. But I can't. I don't know if it's him, or if it's the memories. That fact that I told him EVERYTHING and we did everything together. He was my everything. I'm young and shouldn't get that emotionally invested, but it's still awful. He's .. Amazing. And I love him. And I'm to the point where I don't even know if I can just be his best friend. I may have to completely cut him out of my life. Which sucks.. But I need like.. A month without him. Just to see if I think about him as much. If I see him with another girl,though, ill die. I couldn't possibly.