This is why.

I told you not to read my blog anymore, so if you're reading this... I would probably have done the same. 

But whatever. Cassidy and Caitlyn are bitches. And I like to think of him as mine still. But he isn't. He never really was. And that sucks. It sucks so much. I can tell people how I'm gonna be fine and how moving on will be easy, but I don't mean it. Like who am I kidding. He was far from the perfect boyfriend. And I was not the perfect girlfriend by any means. But I always felt like I had him to trust. I don't trust anyone. So it's a huge responsibility. Please don't make me regret giving you that. Gah. I can't do this. You leave, and I feel like I have no one anymore. My best friends got a boyfriend now so she's allowed to be away sometimes. But everyone else just ran out on me. And now I feel like I have no one. And that's completely unusually for me. 

Dying. Slowly but surely.