Here's to the kids...

here's to the kids who want someone to call theirs.

here's to the kids who are afraid of being rejected so they never take that extra step. 

here's to the kids who stay up late at night & think about what they could of done that day. 

here's to the kids who act like they don't care sometimes but it's just because they're afraid of getting hurt. 

here's to the kids who feel like they're growing up too fast. 

Here's to you, let's raise a toast. 

-Alto

Butterflies

When he says my name, my stomach starts to hurt. When he smiles at me, I feel like I can't breathe. When he talks to me, absolutely nothing else in this world seems to matter. Knowing that he is going away soon scares me. He's going to college, I'm going into junior year.

-Alto

Ladies and Gentlemen..

Theres a girl. No... Not just a girl. There is this girl who has dreams bigger than life itself. Living smack dab in the middle of the United States, you don't find many of those. Gabby is her name. She's a blonde punk, and I love her. If i ever have anything I need to talk about, she is there to listen. And the best part is anything she needs to talk about, I listen. We aren't those friends that just want to brag about the latest news or vent about our average lives, we truly care about each other. We just get each other. I have never met someone that I have clicked with so well. The funny part is, we don't really have that much in common. Just our dreams and our look on life. Which is enough. She's one special girl, that Gabby.

-Alto

Pinch me. I'm dreaming.

Hi.. That boy. You know... The one who remains nameless, but from my posts, you know everything about? Yeah, he's mine. :) I never thought that he would actually ask me, but guess what... He did. I have a boyfriend. And he's perfect. I'm super happy. So happy, in fact, that I'm speechless... And until I can stop smiling, I'm leaving it at that.

-Alto

"I'll become a catholic when i see one."

So, i am a catholic. I go to a catholic high school and before that i went to a catholic elementary school. And heck, before that i went to a catholic pre-school. I sing at church with a guy that is the exact same.

I go to a catholic high school where the kids are phenomenal. Around adults, they are awesome. They'll open doors for them, offer to carry stuff, and just be all around good kids. But the real problem is how they are around their peers.

Being raised in a catholic school, i was raised to believe that drugs are HORRIBLE, alcohol is for adults, and sex.. Well, nobody talked about it. But now going into high school, only a handful of my friends are virgins and a lot of the rest of them has had a boyfriend (which isnt bad, but i just haven't yet.)

I have big dreams. Dreams bigger than anything some people can imagine.  I will NOT, I REFUSE, to risk any of them. I will not do any of the above.

I have a problem. Because i am catholic, but sometimes i just think that there is a God. But.. is he really going to deny me heaven if i dont go to church for one sunday compared to someone who doesnt go at all. I know there is that Purgatory thing, but really.

What the title of this says is "I'll become a catholic when i see one." Its a quote from someone important that i wasnt paying attention long enough to hear. But its true. Going to church and saying you're catholic is like if i stood in a garage and called myself a car. There are so many rules that go along with Catholicism. Rules that make me feel like I am a prisoner. I love the God that I know, but every time i screw up, I feel hated.

Being catholic should be like a group. A group of people that aren't in it so they can call themselves catholic, but to go around and be the best they can be. Accept the people you would normally make fun of. Be the person you want to be. Dont leave it as "The person I want/mean to be."


-Alto