Let it all out

In good news- Scotty is back and is already telling me about our life plans. So that's cool. Ethan is... Still sassy.  Braxton started texting me again. Josh Isnt coming back for another week. Um.

Thennnnn

I'm not prepared for my auditions this week. I thought I had somewhat of a chance for fools and at least a pink lady in grease. But nope. I'm gonna read the script tonight but I don't have an audition    song so lets just forget about it.

My dad hates my guts and doesnt do a good job of hiding it. I'm really nothing like my family. I'm like.. The ginger. And it sucks.

My boyfriends just.. Gone. And I hate it. He's doing good things but it sucks at the same time. The longer he's gone, the more I miss him, the more insecure I get. Lets just say it's just under it's all time high. (The all time high being music man... Bleh.)

I'm literally home alone, watching a scary movie, by myself. I'm absolutely pathetic.

Even my parents don't want to talk to me. My brother just makes fun of me for being fat all the time. My dad keeps telling me to stop looking so stupid by crying all the time. And the only thing my mom has said to me for the past 6 months, her preparing me for Corbin to break up with me. 

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           I went to lunch with my mom                --       Yesterday and I told her that I've    --        Been experiencing some               --        Problems lately and she just           --        Ignored the fact I'm sick and just.    --        Assumed it was him or I'm just.     --       Selfish. :/ 

Well, it can only go up from here...