Ratchet Thursdays

Why do I get ignored so much?

Once upon a time, I was good enough for everyone in my class. I was best friends with them,the guys liked me (I rejected 7 guys my eighth grade year #ohyeah). But now.. None of my old friends talk to me, the guys voted on me being the ugliest girl in VanDonge's 5th hour, and I'm alone.

I have friends that are all older than me. But what am I gonna do once they leave? I'm gonna have to be at least civil with them. And I thought I had all my bath house people to keep me sane but the girl I was the best friends with is a bitch now. Oh well. Ill have someone. Somewhere.

It's just frustrating. Here I'm the girl who is good to have as a partner because ill do all the work. The girl who's a really good friend, but not cool enough for you to talk to in front of your popular friends.

Now, I say this. But up there is past tense..

Because today, I was invited to 3 different parties. People complimented the way I look... I'm not wearing make up. And I look gross. Like, I woke up late and declared today "Ratchet Thursday." That's how bad it is. I had a talk with a director about the shows she wants to see me in within the next year. But no, the bath house girl is still a bitch. And I have a friend she's told some things about me... Yeah. Um. Well, I guess it's good that I know what she says about me so I don't have to try to be friends with her. She's fake, but I'm not. So I'm okay with this.

Deep breath.

Lets go.

-Alto