Reminiscing

I'm trying to get to the bottom of this. 

Figuring out what's wrong with me.

And I don't like writing it down, because it means me remembering it. Recalling these things that made me feel small. Smaller than I ever have before. I've spent the past two weeks writing it all down. I have 

The Future notebook

The Corbin notebook

The Parents notebook 

And The Journal.

I'm dying. This night took an ugly turn.

-Alto